Waking from the strange dreams of winter slumberand sliding into the psychedelic textures of this glorious balance between night and daylight and dark.Rub your sleepy eyes awake open them wideto the exalted enchantment of this fragile, wild, messy, exquisitely beautiful waking world.Sink into the remembrance born from death.Let your bare feet touch the thawing Earthget some dirt under your nails and let…
tend
I have invested so much time, money and energy into healing myself, sometimes with such ferocity that is contradicts the very thing I am seeking. So often I have treated my mind and body as something that needs fixing, a problem to be solved, searching desperately for the tools to annihilate the issue by any…
stillness
Let me be an apprentice to stillness.Let me be an open vesselfilling with the vastness of each moment overflowing with every lovinggrievinglustfulpainfulecstaticachingrawsensation.Moments that birth and die contract and expandarise and dissolve.Let me embody exquisite gentleness and the strength to softenwith my tendrils stretched wideshimmering in receptivity.Let me breathe into each question without ever needing to know the answer.
deer medicine
I hit and killed a deer on my way home last night, our worlds colliding at one very precise moment in time. Those who know me well know that this is not the kind of thing that my sensitive nervous system typically handles in a skillful way. I flinched and closed my eyes on impact,…
flex
I’ve been flexing my vulnerability muscles a bit more these days, and it’s been quite a workout. It’s like that mix of yummy post-exercise endorphin rush, all sweaty and raw, with some aching muscles that I didn’t even know existed, the sting of an old injury, and then really needing some rest. Saying yes to…
the false selves
We can so easily become addicted to the games we play in order to collect tiny morsels of acceptance. These are futile games of measuring risk and reward clenching your fists around the reins that tame your wild heart. Carefully calculating every word that escapes your lips every emotion that seeps through your pores every…
the new year and open doorways
On an evening full of festivities and celebration, I find myself submitting to my body’s need to stay in and rest. I have been scrolling through the many reflections about 2018 on social media – the successes and lessons, the resolutions and intentions – and I feel a mix of emotions. In the traditional measures…
winter solstice
Winter solstice.The rebirth of the sunand the slow,slow return of the light.‘Tis the season to turn inwardstoke the firesnourishsnugglereflectrest.The time to tend our rootsthat will feed the blooms yet to come.Sip broth of bone, fat and rootand simmer yourself right downto the bottom of the pot.Revel in beeswax-lit lullabiesthe smell of old booksand teakettle conversations.Tuck…
on giving love
There are so many ways that we hold back love. It is a treasure stowed safely in our hearts, for fear that letting it flow freely in its fullest expression means imminent suffering. It may end, it may not be returned, it may make us look foolish and naive. We keep it locked up and…
of earth & sky 